Oh dear - not a cheery post I fear. Some of you may have guessed from my somewhat quiet few weeks that all was not too good.
Unfortunately, I have had to admit that I am in
the throes of another bout of depression. I think you all know it is a constant
bystander for me, and every now and then swoops. No doubt I will work out why
and equally, experience tells me that rest and withdrawal for a while will
return me to normal.
I have had to cancel everything for the next few weeks. I
hope to be recovered enough to be on my stand at the Harrogate K+S show … I
will keep you all up to date.
Its been a funny year - some really wonderful things, some really awful and sad things and some just difficult to deal with things. I have been struggling since FOQ really and need to get properly well in order to be able to engage positively in all these things.
In the meantime, please bear with me – I find any sort of communication incredibly hard whilst my score so high – it is not that I don’t care … more that my brain seems to just shut down. Emotion is also too hard to deal with. Those who live with depression will know exactly what I mean.
Sorry to any I am letting down in anyway and I hope to be back to my normal (ish) self soon.
Hilary x
I am sorry. I hope you feel better soon. Be good to yourself.
ReplyDeleteHope you feel better soon, do take all the time you needxxxx
ReplyDeleteDarling girl, you have been ultra-busy and now you need to be ultra-at-peace. You will resurface. XX
ReplyDeleteTake good care of you. Hugs from across the water.
ReplyDeleteMy heart is sad for you.....take care and all the time you need to heal!
ReplyDeleteStep back and look after yourself Hilary. Rest and 'me-time' will hopefully restore you to better health. x Take care x
ReplyDeleteconcentrate on getting well soon, we're here when you're ready x
ReplyDeleteTake care of yourself, we're listening.
ReplyDeleteReally sorry to hear that you are suffering, but glad that you are resting. With these things I think the only thought that helps is that it will go - it has before, it will again. In the meantime, will be thinking of you.
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ReplyDeleteSo sorry you are in the throes of a bout of depression. I have those 3 and all you can do is hunker down and take care of yourself till it lifts!
It was lovely to do the leaf printing workshop with you at Uttoxeter!
Not a good place to be in, I know. Give yourself all the time you need, we'll be with you when you come out the other side. Take care
ReplyDeleteThank you all SO much for such kind comments and wishes - they were and are truly appreciated. Those who either live with depression themselves, or with someone else who does will understand that even the tiniest of tasks can seem simply impossible .. I liken it to being 'unplugged' - all energy and will is gone. So I am sorry not to have answered these lovely messages earlier - but rest assured they were read and appreciated xx
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